I shared a while back that I was expecting my third baby and due on October 8th. This pregnancy has been much different because with my first two, I was married and wasn’t doing it alone. For the most part, both pregnancies went well. This time, it has been stressful since day one.
I met the baby’s father last summer and we fell for each other too fast. Long story short, he tricked me into thinking he was son great Christian man. I was blinded and fooled. Heck even my entire family was fooled by him. In January I got pregnant though it was of course not planned. His tune changed over night. He became mean and cold. Then he demanded adoption, I refused. Well then in June the donor bailed. He said he did not want me to live with him because he though we would end up fighting a lot (we never had one actual fight, no yelling, nothing just debates over things). We were engaged at the time and he asked for his ring back. Seeing he was a man of no integrity and too much ego, I obliged and told him I was done. He said he didn’t want to break up, just didn’t want me to live with him. He has some mental abnormalities apparentky… I had taken a lower paying job near him. One that wouldn’t pay rent so he really set me up to drown.
Fast forward to August, I finally found a place to live that I could afford and fell down the stairs while moving. Baby was ok thank God. Then at 33 weeks I went into preterm labor. Prior to that I had several viruses for 5 weeks because my immune system crashed due to stress according to my Dr, so I was constantly very sick. They stopped the preterm labor, again thank God.
Yesterday afternoon I thought my water broke. I won’t go into detail but I really thought this is it. Contractions got to 3 mins apart for two hours but things stalled at 3 cm. I was sent home this morning still having some contractions.
I am so thankful this kid is so tough. However, im wondering when he will come now. This pregnsncy has been so hard and even harder because I’ve done it alone. I also have a 3 and 5 year old and caring for them while pregnant has tested me big time. I’m just so tired and need to have this kid.
Any prayers are appreciated. My Dr is supposed to get things going on Monday. I pray we both compete thus journey on a positive note.